L-O-L-O-L-O-L-O-V-E

I haven't wrote in a lonnng time...but things are pretty much the same. Still in school, still struggling at it, still working at Texas, and still with Drew; and only because of him I'm honestly happier than I've ever been in my entire life...hence the subject of my blog.

I've never had someone be there for me and be my best friend in the entire world and love me as much as I love him-- and never have to worry if he feels the same. He's my prince charming...he really is. I couldn't ask for anything better, and my feelings for him only grow with each passing day. It really does scare me though; it scares me that in a second he could be gone and I could be left here with my heart broken. I trust that he won't though; I honestly I feel like he's the one that I want to spend the rest of my life with.

We've been through a lot together, such as having to deal with the whole Shawn and Melissa situation and a lot of jealousy at the beginning, but it's only because we were both scared of being hurt. Because of the fact that he stuck by me, supported me, and stayed with me that whole time, that's one of the reasons I know that he's the one I want to be with. Just looking at him still gives me butterflies...and honestly, after seven months, that usually doesn't happen to me. But he's amazing...and different...my parents actually love him (which can't be said about any other boyfriend other than one) and I can't imagine going a day in my life without him. Now I'm definitely not saying I'm in any rush to get married, I mean it has only been seven months and things might change, but once I have my life figured out and he has his, I do hope that we're still together so that we can get to that point.

I've dreamed about feeling like this ever since I was a little girl. I always wanted to find the man I wanted to be with after I had my time to do my partying, and then I wanted to settle down. Not that I really thought it was going to happen, but it did! Now, the only thing I have left to do in my dream is get into dental hygiene school and actually graduate college...then live the dream I've always wanted.

It's so crazy to see how this relationship got put together. Never in my life would I think that I'd meet the man I wanted to be with at the club, have him reject me (well I thought), have him move to California and back, and then come back into my life at the weirdest of places....Texas Steakhouse. Strangely, though, I love working with him. It's going to be a sad day when I finally get the balls to quit Texas and he's still working there as a manager. Okay, so maybe it won't be that sad for me cuz I'll be making BANK as a dental hygienist and I won't have to deal with rude obnoxious guests anymore :) But honestly, I hope that everything goes the way I want it to. I know life is going to throw some curve balls and it's not going to happen exactly as planned, but I know that we'll get through it.

Well, now that I've expressed how insanely in love I am with Andrew Ayers, I'm going to go see my sexy ba-r-tender at work :)
then off to my anatomy exam....